Category: wellbeing
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Trauma Therapy Session 3: Hard Work Started
So this week was the third session of trauma therapy. Having found last weeks session fairly easy going, and having enjoyed a relatively good week, I was prepared to have to knuckle down this week and start the real work. A did a lot of preparation and perhaps recent events gave me a good shove…
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Trauma Therapy Session 2: Day 5. Faith without a church.
So that was strange. I went to church for the first time since pre covid and I lasted less than five minutes before I left. Now I know religion is a tricky subject, it means lots of different things to different people. Some people think religion is wonderful, others think it is frankly evil. Religion…
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Trauma Therapy Session 2: Day 4, Five ways to navigate the trauma in the day to day.
Following the last session I am defiantly doing a lot better. I am hoping that it is not because the last session was fairly easy going. I am hoping it is because that initial storm has passed. That all the emotions spilling out of me have finished their job. I am still aware there might…
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Trauma Therapy Session 2: Day 1
As is often the case with these sessions before hand I consider all the possible conversations we might have, all the variations of paths we could take and the only thing that is always true, none of my predictions are ever right. It makes me wonder if there is much value in worrying about it…
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Post Trauma Session 1: Day 5. Focus on the good things but don’t avoid the bad.
So the last few days I have been lost in a sea of emotion. Wave after wave overcoming me only to struggle up for air and find another fast behind it. I have toyed with the desire to put it all back in the box and slam the lid shut again. But when I consider…
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Why do we hide parts of ourselves?
I have spoken to a few amazing people this week who have confided in me that there is a part of themselves they actively decide not to share. They are still true to the 80% they do share. They are honest and open, but for that small part they have deemed unworthy or even dangerous…
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Post Trauma Session 1: Day 2. Running on empty
I always want to be totally open about my mental health journey and often think about others out there, struggling along a similar path. As long as there is something worth saying I will share it, good or bad. Shaking, crying, working… I have had a couple of weeks bad sleep already so running a…
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Post Trauma Therapy Session 1: Things are often not as bad as you imagine.
So having spent a week doing an amazing job of frankly winding myself up and worrying about this therapy session it was definitely not as bad as I expected. I didn’t slam the laptop shut and walk out of the room. I didn’t throw up (although avoiding breakfast might have helped with that), I didn’t…
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Scared to talk, but desperate not to be afraid.
Fear is a strange thing. Sometimes it is based in fact, things we fear and we know we have to do, like public speaking. Sometimes it is based on experience, something bad has happened before and we worry it will happen again like a failed exam. Sometimes there is no logic or reason for it.…
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Scared to talk. Therapy is not always easy, but when was happiness easy.
I am shitting myself about having a conversation. How ridiculous is that. I started another round of therapy last autumn. I have always struggled with my sleep, but in times of stress it just gets awful. I often lay awake for hours unable to get to sleep. Have horrendous nightmares some times to such an…
Rowan Aderyn 