Tag: PTSD
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Trauma Therapy Session 19: Post day 1. Phobia of compliments.

Last night I was a complete mess prior to this session. Once again struggling with navigating some of these conversations. An increasing part of me just wanted to back away from therapy but I recognise the drivers for that are fear based and not productive. Chris offered a brilliant quote today one from Obama… ‘You…
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Trauma Therapy Session 18: Post day 8. Alone but accepting.

It’s a strange thing to try and describe. For years I denied the abuse I lived through. I pushed it aside, minimised it, fort my way forward never standing still long enough for any of it to settle. Some how as I did that I felt closer to those around me. Sure at times when…
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Recovery after therapy. Five ways to help you feel better.

Sometimes therapy is hard. The process of digging up old memories and sorting through them. The action of exposing emotions and learning to sit with them. Often the more productive a session the harder it feels. It can literally feel like you have run a marathon. Creating not just a mental but a physical exhaustion.…
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Poetry to ignite the soul: Lost in a sea of pain

Find me… Beyond the shore, we’re the darkness meets the black. Where hope lays beyond the horizon and you are asked to trust without knowing, it is there, waiting to be discovered. Left a drift in a sea of despair, lonely in the echo of an endless night. Clutching at energy to stay a float,…
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Lonely in my abuse. Can you have imposter syndrome in your life?

Oh the irony, I recognised last night as I work through and process the horrific things which I struggled through for decades I feel more and more alone. Isolated in a sea of people who gratefully as far as I know have no such similar experience. Then this morning I go for my run select…
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Freedom from heart ache. Letting go of the things which hold us back.

Today I let go of a long held reminder that had weighed heavily on me for years. When mum past away she did not own much. She was still living in a mental health facility at the time, she had only one bedroom other than the shared spaces and with such a tumultuous life behind…
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Trauma Therapy Session 17: Post day 4. I love making progress painful as it is.

The starter for ten… Dam that Dr earns his money. We covered loads and also nothing. At the beginning of the session we reflected on a couple of things and sign posted a conversation for the future. Then we had a really helpful conversation about speaking to other people or more so other people speaking…
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Trauma Therapy Session 16: Post day 6. Back to processing, back to learning.

It has been a while. I have not had any sessions for a good few weeks, sickness and planning combined. But the break was good, it reassured me that I am not currently dependant on therapy and it gave me some down time, to recover from the intensity of the work. This week was a…

