Tag: mental health
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Trauma Therapy Session 17: Post day 4. I love making progress painful as it is.
The starter for ten… Dam that Dr earns his money. We covered loads and also nothing. At the beginning of the session we reflected on a couple of things and sign posted a conversation for the future. Then we had a really helpful conversation about speaking to other people or more so other people speaking…
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Escaping the real world to find hope in the make believe: Peter Pan
I was reminded the other day of a time I really truly believed in Peter Pan and Never land. I acknowledge that every child has a period of make believe and of escaping into their own little worlds. For me that world was a saving grace so many times. I would write notes to Peter…
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Trauma Therapy Session 16: Post day 6. Back to processing, back to learning.
It has been a while. I have not had any sessions for a good few weeks, sickness and planning combined. But the break was good, it reassured me that I am not currently dependant on therapy and it gave me some down time, to recover from the intensity of the work. This week was a…
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Poetry to Ignite the Soul: The life I never had a chance to live
Please know I am so grateful for the life I have. The love which surrounds me everyday. The intrigue of a job with endless possibility in its capacity to learn. The people who brighten my moments and guide me on my path. But there is a part of me which mourns for the life I…
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Shifting flashbacks. Sorting through a messy history.
I have noticed something since starting therapy. Previously all the flashbacks I suffered were fixed. The same images the same points in time thrown into my present thought. And historically I treated them all the same…pushed them aside, literally shook them off, distracted myself and tried to crack on with stuff. They weren’t relevant or…
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Not beating myself up over something I can’t control. Happy days.
So this weekend I have had another water infection. I know gross and way more sharing than some people will manage but the context matters. This morning I found myself in a familiar position of beating myself up because I was not up to my usual performance. I did not have a great night, awake…
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Trauma Therapy Session 16: Post day 5. Fiercely Independent. One belief I am not going to change.
Last session we talked through extending our sessions to allow for some further work. Chris graciously agreed to put in a request for some more, though I heard loud and clear there was a limit to the time we could work together. I know part me desperately wanted to hear him say he would stick…
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Survivors guilt. I survived and thrived, they barely stay alive.
Sometimes I feel guilty for the life I have. I feel awful for all the children who suffered in their childhood and never really made it out. Even the ones who survived often face a life of struggles, crafted by their beginning. So many of them get lost in a system designed to teach them…
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Three thoughts for Father’s Day for the ones without fathers or always wanting to be a dad.
Father’s Day is definitely a happy time for many recognising the love and showing gratitude for the wonderful dads who helped shape our journey. For some though it can be hard. Either a bitter reminder of the father they never had, the father they have lost or the heart breaking reality of the child they…
Rowan Aderyn 